The tabooed thoughts

Someday all of this -- the struggles, the waiting, the moments of self-doubt and wondering --I wish all of this will make sense.  But for now, I'm trying to have comfort in knowing that I'm trying my best. Although it is hard, I have faith that I'm learning to be kind and gentle with myself for a start. Trusting that maybe the struggles are here to make me strong and prepared for my future. All these moments of self-doubt and wondering, keep me buried deep 5ft under worries and questions!! Watching all the things around me change constantly, makes me question What am I doing, sitting around putting each brick of my dreams together.  Valuing each opportunity to make myself a better person. Seems like the small obstacles are actually not obstructing my growth.....It is my own mind, my own thoughts that are slowing me down. Although it seems as if staying responsible and disciplined is hard, I find much more hardship to stay in the present without feeling...

  Sathuragiri is a pilgrimage site located in the district of Virudhunagar in Tamilnadu. The hills are actually a part of the Western Ghats. The name is in Tamil, as 'chaturam' means square and 'giri' means mountain. Many people say the the hill is square-shaped, so that's where the name originates from. I saw that the temple built around the 2 'suyambu' lingam or the two idols that are not installed by any person but they exist on their own is in the middle of 4 different hills.  Our group consisted of 4 girls and their fathers and four other uncles. Everyone was a school friend except my father, our group’s leader and another uncle. Everyone is such an amazing person. We had great fun throughout the entire journey. They all taught me so much by talking about their life experiences and many other incidents that changed their lives. We began our trek from a madam at the foot of the hills in SriVilliputhur. Filled with adventurous paths, I had great fun a...

 The graceful wind seems to refresh my heart The sight rustles of young green leaves reminds me to pause only to realize how beautiful the world around me is. Each day the steadily rising sun tells me everyday is difficult. To realise these small nuances of the world around me I need a sit back. So many things are happening around me, within me and even within each decision we make. It all happens so fast in a nick of a second that I've already changed. The experiences that I've gathered seems to shape my goals and the expectations I have from myself. The urge to prove oneself in this competitive society, is the single reason why everyone is trying hard to be than they were yesterday.  Determined efforts are driven by the never-failing motivation. This post was a random thought ......I was sitting with nothing to do for I while....and then I begin writing my first post of the year 2022. Writing usually gives you a lot time to introspect and see how you're feeling and why yo...