Twists in my Life #1

Recently, a very life changing event took place.

It changed the perspective I had to many aspects of life.

Each day when I wake up with the excitement of a new sunrise,

When I wake up with the gratefulness of another chance to prove myself and accept myself.

I am certain of what will happen the next moment.

I've planned the next move the second before

Yet I am anxious of the future, unable to experience the present.

What happens to the 'Plan' if there is an unexpected event?

I started to feel broken

I started looking for excuses to assure myself that I'm not wasting my time.

I think I am feeling this way only because nothing has happened to me, nothing big enough for me to even understand the pain.

I'm just affected by what has happened to my mother. It not only affects me as I am to take over the various responsibilities in the house but on an emotional level, its simple hard to process truth.

She has gotten hurt and we have 100% grantee and hope that she will get better in a matter of months.

I'm getting a feeling that the main requirement to live life according to all those plans or more specifically the first and foremost plan is to maintain a healthy lifestyle, for a happy life. I want to accept things more easily, even if there are not always on the road to growth.

I'm an having an all-new experience of helping others, just staying by their side, take care of the house, allow the activities to unfold and finish them on the go, maybe it is a full-scale attempt of the big concept of 'multi-tasking'. Accepting the inability to manage two or three things together, handling all the comments of the food, most importantly managing time has been quite a task which I'm obviously failing at.

But surely, I'm learning a lot, each day. Just now feeling all the things that were always done for me, the things that go unnoticed until you don't get the taste of it.

A short article to summarize a major part of the month, an experience I have never even dreamed of having!!

- Bharathi Senthilkumar

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